just kill me. i'd rather be dead.

i can say that. i'm allowed. freedom of speech says so.

i just got an email from an author of one of the studies in my meta-analysis (whom i had contacted for clarification of something he'd published) and he wrote back saying they were in the process of doing the same meta-analysis as me. oh shit. this fills me with dread because, despite i've been doing my best best best to do this meta-analysis, my boss seems to think my pace leaves something to be desired (ass) and so i expect he will be pissed off that someone else may (please God, no) beat us to publication. when did i get so involved in this thing?